Life has just passed me by ever since I arrived in Scotland. I guess I was sucked into this whole phase of being in a foreign land, enjoying the time and life that I have over here, that somehow I've lost the actual motivation to study :S
Life over here has been more towards, planning for trips.
My mind keeps going,
"When's the next trip?"
"Where to go?"
"Cheapflight promotions?? >.<" Oh well, it's still like that, but on a milder state as the exam draws nearer. I'm not stupid, that granted, I have the confidence that I won't fail my finals, but scoring it.. is another issue all together. It's like I know that I can do it, but I'm not doing my best because my mind has lost it's motivation to study. And I attribute my lack of motivation to the following: 1. Post-grad opportunities will only arise after I've served the government for 3 years. = =''
Initially, I had big dreams of doing post-graduate studies (in silent hopes to be able to stay abroad longer and to travel MORE places in Europe *hehe*) BUT, my dreams are torn down the roof once I found out that freshly graduated pharmacy students (like me) can only apply to do a post-grad course AFTER 3 years of serving the government. Yes, you read right. THREE freaking long years :( By that time I'll be old..and even if I DO decide to continue my studies, I'll be EVEN older after I complete post-grad = =
2. My bed is too comfy
I blame my bed for making me drowsy all the time = =
3. My daily starsign
which almost ALWAYS goes somewhere between the lines of
"Take a break! Enjoy yourself, You deserve a break!"
The proof follows:
But what I realized, that I am the one to blame. No one else.
I've been seriously losing touch with my inner-self and letting autopilot drive me through all these months. It's kinda scary once I think back.
So I've got a daily schedule written down, it's day 2 of the schedule today.
Day 1 didn't go by that well, and neither is Day 2. Half of it was on schedule, but study-wise, it's still a wee bit behind schedule :(
But I believe that I've got my motivation to study a bit more now :) *keep fingers crossed*
I thank the fact that I've got IMU Buddhist Society on my facebook :) They remind me of the buddha and the dhamma. Sadhu to that :)
Quote of the day:
"Mind is the forerunner of (all evil) states. Mind is chief; mind-made are they. If one speaks or acts with wicked mind, suffering follows one, even as the wheel follows the hoof of the draught-ox.
Mind is the forerunner of (all good) states. Mind is chief; mind-made are they. If one speaks or acts with pure mind, AFFECTION follows one, even as one's shadow that never leaves. "
— Buddha (Dhammapada)
So I'm keeping my mind set :)
