Yeah! New Skin!!

Woot!
i got a new skin for my blog! Hehe^^
Isnt it nice?? Oh..luckily it didnt take me too long to do the whole thing last night. Did it right after i blogged last night XD
i know that i have said i wouldnt hv the time to change the skin, at least not until July,
BUT...
i was too lazy to do any studying, so..i sat in front of the computer doing this.
bcoz, changing blogskin = self-satisfaction
which leads to ---> being happy
---> good night's rest.

And also, i am so-so proud to say that i have improved my own record time of changing the blogskin.
1st time = half a day
2nd time = 2+ hours, mayb +++
Hahaha XD
But still, there's no comment section -_-"
Oh well...

Let's Get Started!

WeekLy UpdateS =)

Mon :
Fell sick jz b4 my 1st A-lvl paper(w1) and amazingly panadol activ fast really works! mayb its bcoz its been SO long since i ate panadol. Unlike my bf who takes them EVERYTIME he has a headache -_-"

Tues:
W1 Paper was a total shock!
Based on the past year papers we have, my roomie and i (yup, i apologised to her BUT she didnt..oh well, she's like that..that's jz her) and MANY other students had speculated that ENZYMES were going to come out.
BUT, it didnt.
INstead, Breathing Rate came out.
1st thought "Sh*t"
2nd thought, there is none.
Hahaha..cause i was busy doing the first question. And, there were some "new" questions asked. Which obviously means i crapped a LOT. Basically, the whole paper was filled with my ugly hand writing and loads of crap.

Weds:
Bored to death. Should hv been studying for chem practical BUT i didnt. Jz sat in the room and slept quite a bit.

Thurs:
Ate mamee duck noodles after a LONG time. I prepared it NS-style, ie pouring HOT water directly on noodles, leave for a few minutes and there ---->a bowl of DUCk noodles for u=)
Bowel action was OUT the whole day. U know the type where u go to the loo with the intention to do "business" but ntg comes out?? That's the one.
That night, i was pretty upset. Bad temper and all. Probably cause my bf had confirmed he's going to Czech??
I went for dinner with my bf at WiraSejati, and i was rather hungry and grumpy..yet NO one came n took my order.
"WHY?"
so i shot a look at the waiter.. eye contact was achieved for a second, then i turned away, thinking he got the msg to come take my order. AND he had the guts to go get a drink!
Angry me raised a hand and there the HE came walking slowly...
"NASI GORENG IKAN MASIN!!
TEH TARIK!'
Obviously it was loud enough, yet after he took my bf's drink he pointed at me and asked,
"minum apa?"
Annoyed, i had to repeat my order.
LAter that night, slept early for my LAB the next day.

FRIDAY:
Chemistry Practical 3A. Well, since its the 2nd day of the practicals. I had already know the questions..roughly. If the compounds was not changed i would hv known the answers for the whole paper. XD
The test itself was fine. BUT we had to be quarantined for an extra 2.5 hours after that! WE had to wait for those students in the 2nd session to finish up before we can be relased. (sounds like we're sick or something, huh? plus we cannot use our mobile phone..-_-")
And i had initially thought that my quarantine time would only b 1/2 and hour ONLY.
So, i didnt bring any food, which made me HUNGRY.(thankfully JJ had a bun, which i ate XD)
Then, i didnt bring any books or materials to read..it was a total waste of my whole morning.
Worse still, by the time we were released (1.15pm) no INTEC busses were available.(praying hours -_-") So ----> took the Mini Bus back.
Ate lunch--> nap -->went swimming with parents-->dinner-->home--->blogging!

I'm A Green-Eyed Monster

Yup, i'm officially a green-eyed monster.

A friend of mine asked me to delete the previous post where i said rather..erm "bad" stuff about my roomie. Her reason was not to let the "whole world" know about my problem with her. And, i told her i would.
But,
i guess i would have to break my promise. Because i realised that what i had posted was my exact feelings at THAT particular moment. Eventhough i have not reconciled with my roomie, but right now i'm not upset at my her anymore.
I think to delete the post will be like denying my true self. I'll keep it as a "remembrance" of how "evil n angry" i was. Hahaha..i sound weird..in fact, i sound old -_-" Sheesh..

Before i continue, i would like to make my humblest (is there even such a word???) to my roomie. In case she reads this, or anyone told or informed her about my bad-mouthing her. I would like to say, Sorry girl. I know you said those kind of things because that is exactly how you are. And well, this is jz me.. So we're equal basically. Hahaha..

Well, now its about me being a green-eyed monster.. And yet again it has some connection with my current roomie =)
Actually, i hv been envious of ppl before this, but back then..things were less "stressful". I mean like even when i was jealous of my friends before, it would effect my self-esteem that much. Maybe its bcoz u dont face ur frens 24hours in sec school. But in INTEC, i face my roomie, almost, ALMOST 24 hours a day. Now..that's scary.
When i first registered in INTEC, i was with my mum and other than that, no one form my sec school was there. So i was alone n had to make new friends. I knew nobody. Yup..the poor outlier. Hahaha...i'm kidding =P
Back to story, my roomie was also registering the same time as me and she was queueing up jz in front of me. And i can still remember how much i was taken in by her beauty. Okie, dont get me wrong, i'm NOT a lesbian. I'm not. Well, i know ppl who would say
"the more you deny, the more ppl will think its true"
so duh...its true!! i'm a lesbian..burn me!
HAhaha...i'm jz joking. REALLY!
(i think i studied a little too much..i'm mad)

To cut a long story short, i ended up as her housemate at first. And during this semester i bcame her roomie.
In the beginning, when i first entered INTEC, i was this

1. a short haired girl whose hair ,as some claimed, is NEVER combed.

Please, dont blame me. My short has always looked uncombed eventhough i combed it..duh..talk about being presentable. '

2. i had a serious acne problem. I still hv it, but at least its a LOT better than before and i am more than happy with the way it is now..but its getting worse again..might be the stress from studying *sobs*

Back then i lacked self-esteem. Maybe i didnt really show it, but i myslef felt it.
I was unhappy that other ppl had flawless skin and i used to cry bcoz of it.
And, having this really beautiful girl as my housemate was NOT a big help.
In fact, her presence made me feel even insecure.

Yup, i was a green-eyed monster.
I was envious of her beauty.
So i consoled myself by thinking "mayb she isnt as good as me in studies"
then came the 1st test, which she scored better than me.
-_-" so much about her my being better.
I couldnt find a single thing which i was better than her in.
I felt so desperately miserable.
But,
after some time,
somehow i managed to cure that "disease" of mine.
I forgot how it happened, but it jz did. I didnt really bother about it, and it became a natural thing.
She is she.
And i am me. We're different ppl.

BUT, of course the jealousy does come back once in awhile.
So, i do get unhappy sometimes. Like in the previous post, i would say i was totally acting like a really mean monster, glowing in bright geen inside out.
Its not a lovely sight.
i Know it makes me look ugly,
BuT, i can't help it.

And that day i bumped into an article about controlling jealousy.
It said something which sounds like this
" stop comparing yourself with others. Its that easy"
I agreed everything the article said. Except the part which it said EASY.
IF
it were that EASY. The whole world would be happy. No one would be sad.

IF only it were true.
i can blab more about how ppl compare BOTH consciously and unconsciously.
I wish i could say i am happy with the way i am now, but there'll always be times when i'll morph into an ugly green-eyed monster.

MoRe StuDyiNG To Do -_-"

BlaH..!
this whole week has been clearly UNproductive. I'm too lazy to pick up my book to study. Well, of course i do study. But my studying rate can be compared to that of a snail. Yup, that's how slow i go...
why rush? Hahaha XD

Sheesh..something's wrong with the keyboard again.
I can't seem to click on the 'enter' tag. blah..gotta re-edit again. Taking away my time for studies though its not like i accomplish anything with a measly 10min? (finally re-editted it)
Haih...my life now clearly revolves around studying ONLY. I'm such a nerd.
The latest entertainment i had was watching MI3 in midvalley. Hahaha=) My bf is so sweet. He brought me to watch the movie=) he knows i love going out a LOT! And, we watched MI3 for only rm6! Muahahha XD
its basically bcoz we went early. The movie was screened at 11am. So every show b4 12 is only rm6. And i had the guts to ask the fella whether i can use my student id! Haha...i bet he was thinking that i'm such a 'kedekut' girl. Its already so cheap yet i dare to ask for another rm2 off. (yup, student IDs can get you rm2 off! )
yeah..the early bird gets cheap tickets! not to mention no queue!

Other than being bored to death by studying only, i can say that i'm fine...i guess..
Wait, highlight of the week - i launched a cold-war against my roomie.
I dunno why..i jz got so pissed-off at her all of a sudden. Well, mayb its bcoz she called me a 'siu-lei-yan' a mcd last week.(its in cantonese and i think i got the 'han-yi-pin-yin' wrong too)
When she scolded me that day, it didnt hit me. In fact i was so innocent. I didnt feel any anger or frustration. But after much thought, I realised that what she said can be considered as a verbal attack against my ego. Its not like my ego is worth a lot, but duh, i guess its time for me to stand up for myself.
I seldom get angry at ppl. Its been a rather long time since i had a major outbrust. For now i'm jz giving her the cold shoulder.
But duh, she doesnt even know y i'm mad. She jz thinks its my problem. Well, i understand her rather well that i can guess what's going in her head.

" i didnt even do anything wrong. So why should i care?"

Yup, that might be what's running in her head. Wait...maybe she's to oblivious she doesnt even think about it. She jz ignores.
Haih..i guess i'm rather mean. It sounds like i'm back-stabbing her. So that makes me a meanie after-all...gotta delete this post soon. But then again, its not like she's gonna read this anyway..

Intimidated

InTiMiDaTeD but not DefeateD

Heck. Eversince i got my blog my bro has been telling me how fantastic other ppls blog were. He kept telling me to write a bimbo blog. And i was like wa??
Wat the heck is a bimbo blog anyways??
And so my kind bro asked me to visit kenny sia's blog, which i obediently did. Aint i a good sis XD? In KS (writing the name over n over again is tiring), my bro showed me a hilarious post. And yup, it was definately entertaining. Next up my bro showed me KS's posts about bimbo blogs. Well, after reading that i finally know what a bimbo blog is.
At first i thought bimbo blogs were blogs of paris hilton-like girls. Eg acting silly girly, cute, party lovers, etc.. And yup, its true they are like that. BUT, they get sponsors! I checked a bimbo blog which Ks introduced, and wow. She has lots of sponsors.
Well, u can't blame them. She n her kind( i mean those bimbo girls) are pretty. But who am i to say they are bimbos. i dunno, its bcoz everyone says it is so duh, it is a bimbo blog. i didnt label them as one in the first place.
Anyways, back to topic. My bro kept saying u should write a bimbo blog, Then u can get lots of free stuff n bla bla bla..
Well, i'll b more than happy to get freebies anytime of the day, BUT

1. i am not pretty
Do u hv any idea how pretty those girls are WITh make-up?
i dont even know how to make-up! (i'm a fail being a decent girl, i know..it saddens me too)

2. I do not go partying.
i have always liked the thought of going to a club since form 5, But....My parents don't really allow me to go. And so i thought when my bros hit 18 they can bring me out. But unfortunately that never happened either, and i doubt it will anytime soon. And, with my bf now..the more reasons for me not to visit one.

3. i hv no talent on writing bimbo-blogs.
BImbo blogs hv loads of pretty pics lying around the whole blog. And since they are really pretty, its eye candy ie male fans n supporters. Duh, and the 1st reasons explains it all doesnt it?

Well, enough of my sulking. my inability to write a bimbo blog might actually b a good thing. If i really get started on writing a bimbo blog.......
nah..i dont think it'll EVER happen

at least not now =)